As I have spent time thinking about the purpose behind this daily song blog and what it is I want to share, I have come up with some criteria for the daily song. It must meet one or more of these.
1. At some point during the it has caught my attention and I can't quit thinking about.
2. It is a new song by someone I have never heard of and it speaks to me.
3. It applies to something in my life today.
4. It is a significant song from some part of my life.
The first one is probably the hardest and that is where the first few songs came from. But today I land with #4, a song that is significant to a specific time of my life.
In 2017, on Easter morning my dad was taken by ambulance and was bleeding internally and they couldn't figure out where. In the midst of the other turmoil in my life, my father came close to death a couple times and was in the hospital for almost 6 weeks. This song hit the radio during this time. And I remember be struck to tears because I knew in my heart at any moment God could answer my prayer and heal my father and return him to teaching and being Grandpa. I also knew that God could choose not to, or He could heal my father and take him home with Him.
Just like I knew that He could give my husband a job, heal my broken heart, make my child sleep at night, and make my budget work. God could do all the things I asked and He could choose not to.
This season was so intense. My finances were as low as my father's hemoglobin and much like we couldn't find where he was bleeding we couldn't find a second source income.
This song was played on repeat and through tear filled prayers I fought so I could say It Is Well! Through all of it my soul was ok, my soul found rest in God.
And today, 3 years later in a season that always makes me hug my dad a little tighter I can tell you all the ways God answered those prayers.
And as I am battling my own stomach issues that are sure to hit me in the finances in a way that has me nervous, this song still brings me peace. Because there will always be something to break the budget, but I refuse to let my world spiral and I know that through all of it God is in control and if He doesn't move my mountain than the climb must be part of my journey.
No matter what your Even If statement is tonight, I pray you can see and feel that God has you and can sing deep down in the depths of your soul, "It is well, with my soul!"
***Adah's lent: I am asking her each day what she wants to thank God for, what was her favorite thing that day!
Day 1: being able to talk!
Day 2: for Nicole's foster daughter being in our life and her upcoming birthday!
Day 3: for the balance beam and fun activities at daycare!
Day 4: for Nicole's foster daughter and her birthday party!
Day 5: Mommy forgot to ask.
Day 6: for Daddy!
Day 7: Mommy forgot to ask.
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