Tomorrow you turn 6 months old. It's hard to believe that six months ago I was at the hospital trying to will you to come out. You were so content to stay inside and swim around. You barely stopped moving long enough for the nurses to keep you on the heart monitor. And you definitely didn't want to slow down long enough to do your job to come out naturally. So at 7:46 the next morning they had to force you out through a C-Section. I wish I could go back and relive the first three weeks of your life knowing where we are now. Secretly I think I was mad at you for not coming out the way that you were supposed to. I was in pain physically and you didn't want to sleep much and I just wanted to cry and be held but Daddy had to go back to work and then so did Aunt Nicole and Grandma so I had to do it, and I had to do it by myself. It was so frustrating and I was mad at myself for feeling this way toward the best thing in my life, I knew it wouldn't last and I'm so thankful it didn't.
We have come so far since those first few weeks.
The first picture here is from the day you turned 5 months old. The second one is from today. You have changed so much this past month. You now sit by yourself and play for long periods of time, and you roll all over the place. You babble constantly and love to blow bubble and make raspberry sounds. You haven't really stopped moving since God blessed us with the gift of you. Even your sonogram pictures are blurry because you wouldn't hold still. It is so much fun watching you figure out this world and watching you play is my favorite past time.
But this morning with this picture comparison all I could think was slow down. Stay little for awhile longer. This picture took my breath away. So sweetheart it is ok with me if you want to slow down a bit. But I know that won't happen because that just isn't you. You have to be on the move and go go go is just your style. So I guess I'll try to keep up with you and enjoy every moment as it flies by.
I pray that as you speed through everything you don't lose your smile, your silliness, and your sweetness. I love you sweet child of mine!
Slow Down by Nichole Nordeman